My Story My Suffering

yesterday night.....I told a girl about my story....about my suffering.....I cry when I told her everythings.......I don't know why I 'll told her...I even just know her for a few week only:...and told her everythings?????What a shame....what am I doing.....why .:???I dont know....when I flashback everythings....I always lost a tear.....no one know my story my suffering.....I remember last time I told my ex-girlfriend my story.....i drop a litre of tears....she is the one who I really really love......name Charmaine.....we break because she say she want study:....maybe:.....but now i tell a girl about my story my suffering who i just lnow her a few weeks.......????they question is should i tell the girl.......or shouldnt......i dont know......I like her but i dont dare to tell her...just i now leave it to faith.......and slow it down.....

My Word

human.......always have a memories to remember.....some is bad some is good....but in my mind always only have bad memories.....in my love story....as usual...hahaha...seventh times...but failure...is not my fault....is them...ya but i know some is really really really my fault.....because.......I don't know how to explan it....when I saw a couple together...I always feel jealous......jealous.....I ask myself......if I have a girlfriend......I also want sweet like them.....when I saw a news is reporting that "a husband/a fiancee/a boyfriend is been defendant for abuse his wife/fiancee/girlfriend".....,then I started to tell myself.....Avitus...you should not do like that if you had a girlfriend......thusday i watch a movie...a story of family and love....a girl names Aya which has passed away.....her family took the responsible to took careif her when she was in sick....she love a guy......names Asou....they love each other...but the guy father won't allowed his son to be with the girl because of her sick.......seriously if you all watch you will fell a tears...when I watch that movie I'll always lost my tears......touchfull......and I started to imagine ....I tell myself...if I have a girlfriend who was fall in sick....and will not live longer....I'll not tell the girl I willing to accompany you....,but I'll tell her I willing to took care of you and accompany you till the times....and it is my responsible as a boyfriend to took care of you...,i don't care what people looked at us....if my family dispute....I will also continue to took care and accompany you with hearts.........that what's my word.......

My Memory

why......im still thinking of you.......i already told myself want to forget you...concentrate on my study.....but why...why....why......i dont know........i still dreaming about the things that i promise to you......i stilll miss you....the day that we have photo together....wow.....i not sure that i can forget you....i already forgive you.....but im sure that i still can't live without you.....the song i wanted to give you ..that iwanted to perform especially to you......i can't present to you in time.....maybe it isn't the time...or maybe i done it not in time.....haiz.......the song im sure not in spirit....but i  write it with true spirit....i done it with my soul.......i use our memory to done it.......i use my energy to chase it......im....im.....im......i dont know you still love me or not......but i still got my heart to you......im........I Love You......

Expression of first time when receiving a syllabus....

t oday i been shocked by my music lecturer.....when he gave us d syllabus.....i stop for a while.....and thinking ...am i at hell or what....walaoweh...de syllabus....so so so so hard.......i dont know that i need to find a teacher for my major and monir study.....luckilly tge lecturer say can help us find a teacher for us.....wow...at that time i just can relax for a while....now i consider as a those who are flying.......

My Life

what a time...its fast......i miss my mum....my family...my lovely chubby niece....and all at sabah.....and i started miss you...amanda....you have already 2 month didnt came to church....where have you been...........i miss you......